Thanksgiving... my dad... my birthday...

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Ugh. The 26th on this Month is Thanksgiving... Anyone else know what day that is?

Anyone? ...

The day my dad died. What a terrible thing for life to do. How ironic is it that Thanksgiving happens to fall on my dad's death date? So, when were going around the table telling our family what were thankful for what should I say? hmmmm...

"I am thankful that my dad died this very same day a couple years ago. I am so very thankful I am reminded by it, and can't seem to heal. I am thankful my step dad doesn't want to be a dad to me. I am thankful every time I see people with their dad's I want to cry because it will NEVER be that way for me again. I am thankful that I didn't realize I would miss my dad when he was gone. Thankful that for the rest of my life it's going to be that way. I am thankful people lied when they say all wounds heal with time because they don't. I am thankful that I am reminded so often of his death that the almost healed wounds rip open again. I am thankful I can't have a birthday with out being sad knowing my dad's funeral was on my birthday. I am thankful I have such a great life."

Then, should I say amen? Stand up and take a bow? or look at the person next to me letting them know it was their turn?

hmmm....

Aside from all the pain I learned the most important lesson in life. You don't realize what you have until its gone.