The Beauty In Me.

(Picture found on cmprather@hotmail.com)

For years I've tried, For years I've failed;
To seek the beauty my life held.
To blend in, as someone I'm not.
For months and months that's what I thought.
To cut, hide, and shy away.
The depressing thoughts spent their stay.
To have a boyfriend that was cool.
Then I would be popular with the girls at school.
For years I've tried, for years I've failed.
To seek the beauty my life held.
In all my seeking did I see,
The beauty I found in being me.

What my poem means: Everywhere I turned people were giving me hints that if I wasn't popular, had a popular boyfriend, or even cut I was pretty much a loser. So, I tried them and in the end I felt happier being myself. Pretending to be someone I'm not only made me feel like crap. I got lost in what other people thought of me that I let them control me. Even when I was dressing like someone else I was under the impression that I was being myself. I was turning into an annoying no-so-popular robot. Be Yourself, corney as it sounds it truley makes you happier.

High School...

So far, I love it. Of course really its too soon to tell but I think its going to be great. Everyone is so tall! I feel so normal. In Jr. High I felt like a freaking giant! Now I feel normal. It's great I love it. My classes are way good. I have four with Jessica so I don't feel awkward in really any of them. I always have someone there.

Now, track on the other hand isn't go so well. I got sick as you guys know and when I ran my throat was swelling shut and it hurt. So, I walked the easy two mile jog... Easy my butt. Haha... I'm going to try again now that my throat feels better. I have to take medication for it twice a day. Hopefully that will help. They had a six mile jog Saturday. haha. Of course I didn't go. :D Anyways... yeah... :D

UPSETTING!

I was pretty pumped about doing track tomorrow after school. Running to me is so much fun now. Well, Last night I woke up from a nightmare, and my throat was close to being swelled shut. Ugh. My glands were swollen, my throat hurt so bad, and it was going up into my ears. So, I don't get to jog tonight, and if it doesn't stop I'll have to get ANOTHER surgery. I'm so mad you guys don't even know.
I refuse to get another surgery. That hurt so bad, and I couldn't stand being so lazy, and staying in one spot. urgh.

Anyways, SCHOOL IS TOMORROW! I'm so excited! :D Way to be sick on the first day of school Kacee. UGH!

May I borrow your pen? I need to stab you in the eye.

I'm so stressed and irritated right now it isn't even funny! I'm like freaking out what to get Jared for his birthday which is on the 20th and everything I try to do fails. I'm so mad right now! Not to mention the other thing I was going to get him WONT WORK because my grandma's STUPID, GAY, and RETARDED computer is so old it wont do it!

Not to mention the church wants us to go back to church. I DON'T LIKE CHURCH AT ALL! I'm sorry for those of you that love it and believe in it, but this is my blog... I can say what ever I want on it. I don't want to go back. When you have a family that is completely against it, and doesn't believe in it; Then, MAYBE you'll understand. Plus, I have a completely different insight on what I think church is...

Then, my Grandpa is really really sick. He had to get surgery last night and was in the hospital all last night. He's been in and out of the hosiptal since May because of a heart attack... He is going downhill now. I swear if my Grandpa dies I won't be able to take it. I'm so sick of close people dying in my family... You don't even know. First it was my dad, then my grandma's sister, then my uncle's best friend, then my older sister Ashleys Ex Ex Ex Ex boyfriend, then my grandpa's brothers... UGH

Alpine Slides In Park City

Going down the Apline slides with Ashley...

Haha I look like a lion

I was pretending to fall off the ski lift but i couldnt stop laughing

our feet from left to right is me, Katie, my mom (Shannon), and Ashley.

Waiting in line to get on the ski lift.

he being grumpy haha.

We us three. Parteners in crime.

my wonderful mother

Ashley and I eating breakfast

Track, Hair,Grandpa, and my dog.

Hey Everyone,
I'm doing track this year for school. I'm pretty excited. :D Running is so much fun to me now... Isn't that so weird? I crave going outside to jog, but I have to take certain days off. Which sucks because all I want is to be out there jogging. It also sucks because in the middle of the day it gets really really hot and really its no fun to jog when it's hot outside. So, I think I'm going to start jogging every morning and every night... Well on the days when I should be jogging... Yeah I know you guys are probably think I am so stupid... YOU DONT UNDERSTAND!
As you all know I dyed my hair black it started to grow out and so I asked my hair to just dye the top layers blonde so its light on top and dark on bottom... but my aunt decided she wanted to bleach all of it. BLEACH IT! Ugh, I was so mad! So, she begged me so bad, and made me feel so bad about it I just gave in and let her... Then, when I got home that night I dyed it black again. I hate blonde hair now... with a passion. or at least really really blonde hair... Every average Utah girl has blonde hair. I hate it. I don't want to be a Utah girl... So yeah, now my hair is like dead from the bleach. I'm so mad. So, this week I'm going to get the ends trimmed and hope it will get a bit more healthyier.
So, my grandpa had a heart attack in May. Ever since the heart attack tons of things have been happening to him... He has been in and out of the hopsital, I'm really worried... He's been to the hospital 5 days this week. He is currently in the hospital right now. I'm so scared. I can't have another family member die... I don't think I could handle it.
Also, today I walked into the house and my dog Frodo was on the floor. He looked like he was having a seizure. He was shivering his back legs were not working, and one of his eyes was close. I freaked out. Finally we got him to drink some milk. He seems okay... for now...

Family Reunion

My family is crazy! Yesterday was our family reunion... of course I didn't do my hair, or put nice clothes on so I looked like crap... but these pictures are worth seeing!

This is trenton.

So, my grandpa is loosing his hearing... He couldn't hear us sneaking up behind him. He thought that picture was just of him. lol.

In this picture from left to right is carley, me, tanner, (behind tanner) Tucker, Jackson Jenn, Mariah, Trenton, and Lindsey.

Sam, Tanner, Jackson, Trenton, Tucker, Katie, and Jenn... being well... themselves.

Katie with the boys.

Tucker trenton boe Jackson cody and tanner... The two tims in the back I may have gotten wrong. pretty sad I've known them my whole life and can't even tell them apart.

JESSE!

My little brother Chase :D

My mom and grandma playing for the horse shoe trophy.

Justen being well... herself.

Tucker and Trentons creation!

Slaytor and his little girlfriend.

Grandpa and Grandma.